Future?

I sometimes ask myself "What am I going to do for a living in 4 years time?" and I'm extremly confused.

Guess that's because I'm barely 14.

I never set myself any limits. For example, I'm 14 but my ideas are way beyond what my age could say about me.

I heard once that "You are confined only by the walls you build yourself". Totally agree with that. I guess that the youth's problem right now is that we don't know how limitless we actually are. If we set our mind on something, we're going to get it somehow.

Well, I think I should simply focus on school now. When I get to high school, I'm definitely going to seriously think about this. I want to earn my living through something I enjoy, like playing football, but it's too late to start training like a pro, since my dad never let me do this.

Never been able to understand how my parents can work since the moment they wake up, stop at like 6 p.m and then simply watch TV. I would go down into an abyss of sadness and boredom, surely. Being free, feeling the freedom and being aware that no stress caused by money can get you is an awesome feeling.

I'm so eager to find out more things about the world around me, things which should help me in my future.. Right now I'm too fragile to consider all this, so, I'm going to sit right here and bide my time.

And when the time comes, I will be ready.

Always

Think twice before you make an important decision. Always.

I don't actually remember why I wrote this, but right now it doesn't matter. Still, it's important to think twice before you make an important decision.

Ooh, now I remember. It was about a girl. I really liked her, and we were kind of close, but I didn't know how close exactly. Well, I took my shoot and missed. Fortunately, it ended up alright, since we're still talking :).

But there are situations where thinking twice messes up everything, because sometimes you have to find that one moment when you have to act.

Think about football. When I used to play as a forward, I had to make very fast decisions - whether to keep the ball, to pass, to dribble, to have a first-touch shot.. It's more about your instinct when it comes to this.. Instinct is usually damn right. Now, I play box-to-box midfielder, which means A LOT of running, passing and tackling.. Mhmm I'd rather not get you bored on football stuff now.

Although, in trickier situations, you should rather think instead of taking after your first impulse.

That was unexpected

I swear to all that's holy and divine that exploring my past (like my blogs my previous free-time activities) was .. Amazing. I still remember that 2-3 years ago I was kind of introverted and lazy and so on..

Now?

I know it sounds weird, but I've found my inner self. After research and hours of actually connecting to myself, I got to know my self.

I grew up.

I found many new things, new possibilities, new ways of doing stuff. It's amazing when you have a different perspective..

And I also got a lot more life problems, of course.

Like the fact that I really really like this girl but I have absolutely no goddamn idea of how to tell her that :)) It's complicated, but the thing is it's hard to get to her other side.. Or not really hard, but I haven't found a way around yet. Actually I don't even know in which way I like her. Man, this is tricky.

Oh and I also want to be a professional footballer but my dad tells me to give up and focus on school. Yeah, great, but on a certain level he's right though, since I've got great capabilities of understanding and doing things, and football won't really harness my potential. Alright I would get a lot of money out of football but it's a risky job. Ooh, now I see it, my dad was right. Thanks dad.

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