Free

Don't know why I'm still going to school.

Ok, important stuff like Maths is fine, but crap like Religion? Boring classes make me sick, they make me feel stuck in school, in a diseased educational in system, basically I feel stuck in a decading, deceiving society. And how do I find my way out?

Actually I can't find my way out of it now, I just have to go through with it and get the best out of it, just like I always did, right? I have to..

And if I break free, I'll be perceived as a rebel, a traitor, you call it.

Life is generally organised for us, people. The is cycle is , in my opinion, quite simple: birth - school system - job - retirement - death. Actually, we and our own way of life has been very well organised ever since the beginnings of modern societies. So, it's kind of hard to break free of it.. Maybe I should simply do my thing as best as I can and stick to my stuff =)).

Future?

I sometimes ask myself "What am I going to do for a living in 4 years time?" and I'm extremly confused.

Guess that's because I'm barely 14.

I never set myself any limits. For example, I'm 14 but my ideas are way beyond what my age could say about me.

I heard once that "You are confined only by the walls you build yourself". Totally agree with that. I guess that the youth's problem right now is that we don't know how limitless we actually are. If we set our mind on something, we're going to get it somehow.

Well, I think I should simply focus on school now. When I get to high school, I'm definitely going to seriously think about this. I want to earn my living through something I enjoy, like playing football, but it's too late to start training like a pro, since my dad never let me do this.

Never been able to understand how my parents can work since the moment they wake up, stop at like 6 p.m and then simply watch TV. I would go down into an abyss of sadness and boredom, surely. Being free, feeling the freedom and being aware that no stress caused by money can get you is an awesome feeling.

I'm so eager to find out more things about the world around me, things which should help me in my future.. Right now I'm too fragile to consider all this, so, I'm going to sit right here and bide my time.

And when the time comes, I will be ready.

Always

Think twice before you make an important decision. Always.

I don't actually remember why I wrote this, but right now it doesn't matter. Still, it's important to think twice before you make an important decision.

Ooh, now I remember. It was about a girl. I really liked her, and we were kind of close, but I didn't know how close exactly. Well, I took my shoot and missed. Fortunately, it ended up alright, since we're still talking :).

But there are situations where thinking twice messes up everything, because sometimes you have to find that one moment when you have to act.

Think about football. When I used to play as a forward, I had to make very fast decisions - whether to keep the ball, to pass, to dribble, to have a first-touch shot.. It's more about your instinct when it comes to this.. Instinct is usually damn right. Now, I play box-to-box midfielder, which means A LOT of running, passing and tackling.. Mhmm I'd rather not get you bored on football stuff now.

Although, in trickier situations, you should rather think instead of taking after your first impulse.

That was unexpected

I swear to all that's holy and divine that exploring my past (like my blogs my previous free-time activities) was .. Amazing. I still remember that 2-3 years ago I was kind of introverted and lazy and so on..

Now?

I know it sounds weird, but I've found my inner self. After research and hours of actually connecting to myself, I got to know my self.

I grew up.

I found many new things, new possibilities, new ways of doing stuff. It's amazing when you have a different perspective..

And I also got a lot more life problems, of course.

Like the fact that I really really like this girl but I have absolutely no goddamn idea of how to tell her that :)) It's complicated, but the thing is it's hard to get to her other side.. Or not really hard, but I haven't found a way around yet. Actually I don't even know in which way I like her. Man, this is tricky.

Oh and I also want to be a professional footballer but my dad tells me to give up and focus on school. Yeah, great, but on a certain level he's right though, since I've got great capabilities of understanding and doing things, and football won't really harness my potential. Alright I would get a lot of money out of football but it's a risky job. Ooh, now I see it, my dad was right. Thanks dad.

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Oh no you didn't

So, school is up and running again. Yay.

I got my first 10s. Yay.

Our class played the first football match in the School Cup. We won 5-1. Yay.

 Man, before our cup match everybody had that fighting spirit, that winning spirit, that will to push the limits. Before the cup match, we had many friendlies. We lost some, we won some. We lost because we didn't play as a team. We relied on individual skills. Our team has 1 very good dribbler, 1 very good shooter and 1 very good defender. Usually we gave the ball to the dribbler and we left him alone to do the dirty work. Usually we sent long balls to the shooter and left him alone. And we also left the defender alone to deal with the enemies.

 Well, this time we played as a whole. Everybody played their best. I can't say that we had a MVP. Everybody was at top level. The goalie parried everything he could. The defender marked tightly and threw their feet bravely. The midfielders forgot personal pride and focused on passing. The attackers were magic.

 Yep, it was a great match. After the final whistle, the opposition said "Yeah, congrats, you won a very big nothing.". It wasn't like that. We won morale. We now know that we can play like an organised, strong team. Even if most of our players weren't good individually, and even if the opposition team had 2 very good fellas, we did it.

 With this win in mind, we're thinking about winning the tournament.

What a wonderful world

Hell no. Louis Armstrong was wrong. Our world is corrupted. The evil force that drives countries nuts is called "The Government & Co." . Think about the crazy rules of America. Some states don't allow you to walk with an elephant on the street. The hell's that? Americans are fat and dumb. Mostly. They are the most developed economy in the world, though. Yeah, Americans were serious back in the 20th and 19th century ... back then they built their economy and civilization. Now, they pretty much try to destroy it. Think about it: 2/3 of the Americans don't know that the sun is a star.

Nowadays, the US is all about crap-cheap movies, flashy movie stars (all kinds of movies, not just action and comedy ones), problems with the Arabs and an oil fever.

On the other hand, in Germany, drivers must be trained in first aid and have a first aid kit in their vehicle. Yeah, the Germans are damn serious. After WWII they were simply destroyed Their cities were torn apart, burnt down to ashes. Morale was down to the floor. Economy was disastrous. They had to make allies and split Germany into two: the Russian and the American side. Man, the Federal Germany was the dream for the Democratic Germany. The east side was eking to break away and escape from the communist madness. Dude (btw Oscar Wilde invented this word), look at them now. Germany is the economic engine of Europe. They power up Europe. Now Angela Merkel tarnishes the economy with her austere regime. I don't understand. It's just like communism.

What a wonderful world.

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